doctors again... (13 days)

So yesterday my mom noticed another toe that has turned on me. so this morning we had to go in so the doctor can move it back into place. i took a shower and we left right away. The doctor told me that the toes can move because the bones have not "set" yet, and i totally understood. i realize how major toe shortening surgery really is! He turned the toe back, and it wasn't painful. and i was watching because I'm not scared anymore. and i have learned to love my toes (and the pins =) )


Today I'm very excited my mom went to blockbuster and got me 3 movies and a Wii game!!!

-Hook (captain hook)
-21
-Bee movie
- Wii trivia ( it's really hard questions!!)

Right now I'm going to watch Hook!


talk to you later!!!

12 days worst day

Yesterday i went to the doctor for my first check-up. (the other checkup was an emergency). I went in, the doctor unwrapped both feet and i finally saw them!!!! I couldn't believe what i saw. little toes, MY straight little toes!!!! but of course they were very swollen!

I cannot look long cause I do not like seeing the pins sticking out of my toes! (it freaks me out!)

So after the doctor took eveyrthing off , and i looked at them for the first time , i noticed something...on my right foot, the 4th toe, i saw it turned a bit. My mom noticed right it away. The doctor said that it could be very swollen or it moved. I freaked out, I started getting really hot! I got very nervous hearing my toe has moved and was healing in the wrong position!! So I looked at my toe again and I saw the doctor turn my toe back in place. All I felt was pressure!! ughhh then the worst part. he told me another 10 days like this until he takes the pins out and i could walk in tennis shoes.

Later on this day and today I feel pain.

So today my mom checked that the one toe was sticking straight up and not turned again. She said this toe was perfect. My mom noticed another toe, (of course...)on my left foot, my 2nd toe was turned in too! (not as much as my right foot but it is turned slightly)... so she called the doctor and I'm still waiting for the call...

why do i have to be stuck with this???

now i cannot walk, and i feel pain!

Next Wednesday the doctor will take the pins out and i can finally walk in tennis shoes!!!

i will go crazy!!!! especially if my toes don't come out straight.

borrreddd (9th day)

today i did nothing... like every day. i watch 2 movies; becoming jane, which i loved but made me cry in the ending, and i watched my best friends wedding.

my mom saw me going a lil crazy so she took me out for ice cream at mcdonalds. we were there for about half an hour. so now im home watching the sox game and watching another movie.. peter pan.

im bored and im going crazy, im missing all my friends partys and the grad partys. i miss going out, showering standing up. walking and just being ME

I SAW MY TOES!!!

for the past 2 days my right foot has been killing me. it feels like a sharp knife is digging into my toes! i cant sleep or relax. so today my dad called the doctor and they told me i could come in today at 1.

when i was there . She unwrapped them and found out why i was feeling this pain. i guess i have irritated skin by my third toe. so she put some oil on it to calm it down and wrapped it up for me again.

i couldn't' look at them because i cant stand looking at the pins in my toes and the blood on my toes. plus id rather see them when they are all finished!! i was just too nervous!!

but my mom took a picture of them when the doctor wasn't in the room. and i saw the picture later on in the car ride home. i really like how they look and i cannot wait to wear flip flops!!!

one week

it has been 7 days since my surgery. im going crazy. i cant stand laying around! i need to do something!!!

my uncle is going to a car show tonight. i might go so i can go out. i cannot stay in!

my grandma came over today and watched a movie i just watched 2 days ago. so it seemed longg!

my boyfriend came over again and my mom went shopping all day. she bought me ed hardy flip flops! i love them and i cant wait to wear them!! now im waiting for the sox game to come on!!!

worst night

i did not sleep at all last night. my feet actually had pain. and i didn't take any pain killers. and last night was the first night i actually did not take any sleeping pills, Tylenol pm or NyQuil.

i was sick of just waiting and laying in my bed. so i crawled downstairs and im now watching tv... and waiting for the afternoon

6th day.. 1 week til the doc

So last night i felt sick.. so of course i had to call my mom in and give me a sleeping pill to calm me down. i finally fell asleep around 3am

i woke up at 1pm.. my mom thought something was wrong with me! but i slept and it felt good! when i woke up i went to my grandmas house for lunch and sat with her and my grandpa all afternoon.

later on 3 of my friends came over to watch my favorite TV show...i was very happy!!

they finally all left by 11ish and I'm lying in bed. hyper.. not tired.. tonight's gonna be a long night...

GOODDNIGHT

5th day

i woke up around 9:00ish becasue of the big thunderstorm that was hitting us! but i crawled downstairs and ifeel asleep until now. i havent been sleeping so finally i actually took a nap. i feel much better but im still very tired! today im taking another shower. and hopefully my friend will stop by

3rd night

Last night my mom, dad, and sister left me to go see the new batman movie! so 3 hours by myself?? i couldn't' wait! but all of a sudden i started feeling sick so i had to calm myself down.

i called my grandparents over and they watched the Sox game with me. they took care of me and they left and 5 min. later my parents came home. i had a little but to eat. and then i got ready for bed. my dad gave me another sleeping pill and i hope i don't get attached to it because lately i cannot sleep without the sleeping pill.

today my mom wants to take me out! so i think I'm going to target and at target they have wheelchairs... i just hope no one stares at me!!

PICTURES!!

PICTURES.... finally!!

Feet Before ...ICK!:

Bandages:

Bandages #2:

Shoes:

Shoes #2:

2nd night...

last night.. my 4th toe hurt again! i couldn't even sleep. i was exhausted and all night i kept waking up. plus it was thunder storming outside so i couldn't even sleep. i woke up every hour and my toes were hurting me that i forced myself to fall back asleep.

i finally woke up around 9:30 this morning and my mom came in and told me to come downstairs. she gave me my crutches and walked downstairs. because I'm so weak and tired i hurt my big toe because i leaned right on it. it hurt so bad i had a tear in my eye! i couldn't even walk so i had to call her back upstairs and she had to help me sit down so i can just scoot to the bathroom.

my dad had to carry me downstairs. and I'm now coloring, online, and watching Jerry McGuire. later on ill take a shower... i cant wait!!

2nd day

today was an easy day. i barely had any pain. the 3rd or 4th toe on my left foot was the only pain i actually had. it felt like a knife was digging into my toe. it hurt a lot so i took 2 of my pain killers!

in the afternoon, my boyfriend stopped by again then i relaxed until the evening.

later on my grandparents, uncle aunt and two cousins stopped by. at dinner had dessert and watched the sox game.. GO SOX! i scooted around a lot. after my family left, my cousin stayed behind and talked to me and my mom. i really felt like i was part of the gossip and i really liked it! i really like my cousin.. she's funny!!!

well here goes my 2nd night! goodnight!!

first night =(

so last night i was blessed with no pain. but of course something went wrong and i couldn't fall asleep! everything i did. my room was steaming hot, my pillows were hot everything. so i couldn't sleep. it was around 3am and finally my mom came in to check on me.. i was relieved!

she helped me to the bathroom, then my dad gave me a sleeping pill.. i then slept til 11am

this morning i woke up with pain..i think it was from all the walking i did the day before. So my sister helped me down the stairs and I'm in my family room watching TV. while my feet hurt. my mom gave me two pills so they will stop hurting.. they haven't kicked in yet

after surgery

its 11:13pm.

so when i arrived at the hospital, me and my mom went upstairs and signed in. we sat in chairs waited for my name to be called and waited for my dad to park the car and find us. i brought my laptop so my mom could check her emails.

they called my name finally and i walked back into this room. the nurse closed the curtain and told me to change into this robe.. nothing underneath, not gonna lie i was pretty nervous! i took a pregnancy test so i had to urinate in a cup, i was so nervous i didn't think i had enough for the nurse!

i waited in the room and finally two nurses came in. they laid my down on the bed and asked me questions. one nurse talked to me about my feet and the other was injecting me with a needle for my iv. it hurt!i hated it! then the anesthesiologist cane in and he talked to me about what his job was. i wasn't paying attention. i couldn't believe this was all happening! i was laying there the nurses left and my parents walked in. they stayed with me until the doc was ready for me! they reeled me away and of course i had tears inn my eyes. i was extremely nervous and i just couldn't wait to be over with.

all i remember was laying on the bed with my iv in and they strapped me in.... that's it. next thing i know i was in the waiting room.. not even recovery room. i guess i slept the whole time.. but i Do remember int he recovery room i was freezing and was shaking and they kept giving me warm blankets.. i like them.

int he waiting room my parents came in, of course my dad video taped me! i didn't care i sometimes like when he does that and plus i was so tired i didn't care ha ha. i was in the waiting room sleeping with my parents for about an hour and finally around 3ish i left. i was in the car and i was on my way home.

my boyfriend came over and visited me for about 5 hours. that was very nice of him! My grandparents came over too! my sister came home from college and my dad came home tonight from his business trip. its 11:21 and I'm exhausted..


goodnight<3

ill tell you how my first night went =)

Todays the day...

its 7:45am. i just woke up. we have to be at the hospital at 8:30am. surgery starts at 10-12. then recovery for an hour then ill be home...

when i come home... ill have perfect feet

What i'm actually getting done?

what exactly am i getting done? well on my right foot im getting done my 2nd-4th toe. im getting it straightened out because i have a "claw" toe, and he is shortening them. on my left foot im getting my bunion done, and my 2nd-4th toes straightened and shortened. and PLUS straightening my pinky toe on my left foot only.


here are some pictures:

before and after

1day left!!!!

4 more days...

Today is sunday and today is the last day i have free until my surgery. im going to relax all day and use my feet a lot! tomorrow and tuesday i have doctor app. and i work.

wisdom teeth...

On Monday i got three wisdom teeth out. the fourth one didn't form so i was happy! but after 4 days... they still bother me. and one week til my new feet!!!!

after doctors app.

so today at 2pm. i went to the doctor and got my feet checked out. he told me everything i need done./ and its worse than before. he had x-rays from last year June and today he took new ones. nothing got worse but he is now talking about my bunion forming and my Lil pinkie toe. so instead of having 6 toes done, I'm having 8 out of 10 done... ugh.



the recover is 10-15 days off the feet. relaxing so I'm going to be blogging a lot. and after that I'm going for a checkup. after that another week and he will take the pins out of my toes. after the 2nd checkup he said i can go back to work, and maybe start wearing flip flops.

doctors app.

today is the day i will find out when i will be getting my surgery. i hope its soon because i absolutely hate my feet, and i want to be good for next year for school.